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I've done the unthinkable.

Oh, and I've also posted the last bit of Heat Tolerance on the Teaspoon. Here's a short teaser while you wait for it to clear the mods...

“No no no,” the Doctor denied, rubbing his face with his palms and then sliding his hands up into his hair, mussing it in a familiar gesture of irritation. “Are you even listening to me? I can’t.”

“Can’t, or won’t?” Jack pressed. “What are you so afraid of?”

The Doctor’s only response was an inarticulate noise, full of frustration and a hint of disgust. He pushed off from the sofa, standing in preparation to beat a hasty retreat from Jack and his difficult questions.

But Jack had decided that enough was enough. His hand darted forward, catching the Doctor’s sleeve and tugging him backwards.

 

But... back to the important thing. I've done the unthinkable.

I've written porn.

Not sweet/hot/cute/crack/OT3 porn, which I would not be nearly as much embarassed about.

I know it's not everyone's cup of tea, but I spend way too much time on dw_slash and the things that happen there regularly eat my brain. This time I was weak and I gave in and started typing.

That's right.

I wrote snowgrouse-manip-inspired Master/Doctor Life-on-Mars-ogodpoorsam-crossover noncon-bondage-mindfuck porn. I've never even seen Life on Mars.

And that's not the embarassing part.

It's not even good porn. I know it's bad, because I let it sit for a couple of days and read it again. It's... bad.

And now I'm thinking about trying to fix what even I could tell was bad about it. And then letting it sit for a few more days to see if it's still bad. Rinsing and repeating until it no longer makes me cringe. And then pleading the other denizens of dw_slash for a porn beta willing to be ruthless. And then fixing it some more. And then actually posting it.

Because, oh Rassilon's Rubbers (take that to mean what you will, but at least it's alliterative), it's bad. And it offends my sensibilities, and I want it to stop being bad so I won't feel like I'm a cheap, bad porn writer.

So... yeah.

::wanders off, muttering:: 

Comments

nightrider101
Jan. 22nd, 2008 08:31 pm (UTC)
YAY for porn! LOL Doctor/Master hasn't been top on my ship list, but it's becoming more of a guilty pleasure. ;) I can't wait to see what you've written! And if you need a ruthless porn beta, feel free to look me up! I'm actually a very experienced porn slash writer. Don't ask.
adaliazandra
Jan. 22nd, 2008 10:04 pm (UTC)
Master/Doctor is just... so canon. And necessary. And... yeah.

I'll let you know when this monstrosity is ready for betaing. Right now it's... well, really bad. :-)
nightrider101
Jan. 22nd, 2008 10:26 pm (UTC)
Yeah. Hee! :D

I doubt anything you write could ever be really bad, but we'll go with it for now. Like I said, just let me know when it's ready!
adaliazandra
Jan. 23rd, 2008 12:55 am (UTC)
I don't think it's really the writing itself that's bad... it's just that my style doesn't appear to transfer too well to this unfamiliar genre. Also, it might be that I was writing with my blood supply going to the wrong brain, which can't have helped.

I've got this half-page list of things that suck about it, that I know how to fix. Really pathetic things, too. Once I get those fixed, you can take a stab at it. And, really, be ruthless. I want it to stop sucking. Metaphorically. :-)
nightrider101
Jan. 23rd, 2008 01:58 am (UTC)
*snickers* Okay then. I can be ruthless. My porn glasses are firmly in place!
adaliazandra
Jan. 23rd, 2008 07:19 am (UTC)
You'll have to let me know what address you'd like me to send it to. You can email me if you like... adaliazandra at yahoo dot com.

I still can't quite believe I'm actually working on this... thing. ::marvels at the still stinky bad porn:: Bwahr... need sleep. Will think about this more tomorrow. ::nods off just to undoubtedly have strange dreams about the inspiration for said porn::
nightrider101
Jan. 23rd, 2008 01:42 pm (UTC)
I'm sitting at work right giving the illusion of actually working. ;)

My email address is nordesm at yahoo dot com.

I think it's good to get outside your comfort zone. :) I wasn't originally a Doctor/Jack shipper, but now I can't seem to get enough.
adaliazandra
Jan. 23rd, 2008 03:25 pm (UTC)
I do that all the time... I work in an office and as a TA in a computer lab, so I'm always on a computer and often get a few minutes down time to check my email/LJ/etc. I love the fact that I get paid to do that.

The whole idea of writing porn is way outside my comfort zone, for sure. But now I'm determined, darn it! :-)
nightrider101
Jan. 23rd, 2008 08:43 pm (UTC)
hehehe I keep my second job because I get paid to do my homework all night. Honestly, I have to go to work just to have the motivation to get my school work done. ;)

Your new story? Yeah, you could have been more subtle if you reached through your monitor and beat me over the head with a wielding mallet. :D I'm absolutely, without a doubt, 100% in love! I left proper feedback on Teaspoon, but I can't seem to do enough gushing so I thought I'd come over here. I can't wait for an update!

adaliazandra
Jan. 24th, 2008 07:20 am (UTC)
Next part is up!

I've been lucky the last several years to have stumbled upon a string of jobs in which I always wound up with lots of time to sit and get paid to do my homework or wander teh intarwebs. I love academia. :-)

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