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I've done the unthinkable.

Oh, and I've also posted the last bit of Heat Tolerance on the Teaspoon. Here's a short teaser while you wait for it to clear the mods...

“No no no,” the Doctor denied, rubbing his face with his palms and then sliding his hands up into his hair, mussing it in a familiar gesture of irritation. “Are you even listening to me? I can’t.”

“Can’t, or won’t?” Jack pressed. “What are you so afraid of?”

The Doctor’s only response was an inarticulate noise, full of frustration and a hint of disgust. He pushed off from the sofa, standing in preparation to beat a hasty retreat from Jack and his difficult questions.

But Jack had decided that enough was enough. His hand darted forward, catching the Doctor’s sleeve and tugging him backwards.

 

But... back to the important thing. I've done the unthinkable.

I've written porn.

Not sweet/hot/cute/crack/OT3 porn, which I would not be nearly as much embarassed about.

I know it's not everyone's cup of tea, but I spend way too much time on dw_slash and the things that happen there regularly eat my brain. This time I was weak and I gave in and started typing.

That's right.

I wrote snowgrouse-manip-inspired Master/Doctor Life-on-Mars-ogodpoorsam-crossover noncon-bondage-mindfuck porn. I've never even seen Life on Mars.

And that's not the embarassing part.

It's not even good porn. I know it's bad, because I let it sit for a couple of days and read it again. It's... bad.

And now I'm thinking about trying to fix what even I could tell was bad about it. And then letting it sit for a few more days to see if it's still bad. Rinsing and repeating until it no longer makes me cringe. And then pleading the other denizens of dw_slash for a porn beta willing to be ruthless. And then fixing it some more. And then actually posting it.

Because, oh Rassilon's Rubbers (take that to mean what you will, but at least it's alliterative), it's bad. And it offends my sensibilities, and I want it to stop being bad so I won't feel like I'm a cheap, bad porn writer.

So... yeah.

::wanders off, muttering:: 

Comments

adaliazandra
Jan. 22nd, 2008 08:09 pm (UTC)
I <3 Farscape, and am not surprised that it inspired porn. I watched most of it when it first aired on Skiffy and then later a friend of mine turned out to be an utterly obsessed fanboy and made me watch several of the eps on DVD. Not that I'm really complaining.

Last bit of HT, you mean. I'm honestly glad to see the back of that fic, after what feels like ages of wondering when I'd get to finish it. Now I get to start posting my post-VotD fic... I'm looking forward to that one. :-)
bulky_monster
Jan. 22nd, 2008 10:42 pm (UTC)
Our little family - meaning my boyfriend, my roommate and I, not t'other family - loves Farscape. We've collectively purchased all of it on DVD and have been watching it from beginning to end since October or so. On season 4 currently. And yeah, it's pretty much all about sex and other bodily functions - in space.

I'm looking forward to your post-VotD fic too! But I really, REALLY hated the episode...
adaliazandra
Jan. 23rd, 2008 12:52 am (UTC)
Sex and other bodily functions in space... yup, that about sums up Farscape in general and the later episodes in particular. :-)

I'm sorry you didn't like VotD... I have mixed feelings about it, myself. If I can just ignore the things that annoyed me, I can honestly say I loved the rest of it.

The fic I'm working on is something along the lines of what I did after LotTL, a story where the Doctor goes to someone for some TLC/emotional help. It just might not be who/when you'd expect him to go to, and it's leading me into a kinda interesting plot. I've got one and a half parts written, and so far it's been lots of fun! I'll probably post the first part tonight. :-)
bulky_monster
Jan. 23rd, 2008 01:50 am (UTC)
is it can be Jamie McCrimmon?
adaliazandra
Jan. 23rd, 2008 05:54 am (UTC)
No, sorry... I haven't seen enough Classic Who to write something like that. Though I wouldn't mind reading it.

I'm nearly ready to post the first part of this one... it is, just as in most of the recent post-VotD fics, Jack who the Doctor goes to. But I think I've got an interesting spin on the idea, and similarly an interesting take on that spin, which has also been done by a few others.

And if that was horribly confusing, just blame the fact that I've been awake and working for almost 17 hours and am now pretty much incoherent. Off to post that first part, and then get some sleep...
bulky_monster
Jan. 23rd, 2008 12:38 pm (UTC)
Oh! I have a few guesses.

You're making sense to me, although a bit rambling. No worries, I've been there ;)
adaliazandra
Jan. 23rd, 2008 03:49 pm (UTC)
I'm glad I was making sense to somebody. You should see my reply to Wendy's comment below. The Sims got involved at one point.

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