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Authorly Update - Yellow Bottle Day

 Today was a yellow bottle day. So were the previous several days. There are two reasons why.

The first reason has to do with my scholarship. When I last posted, the big problem that had been found looked likely to resolve itself with more of a whimper than a bang and I was much relieved.

This was not to be.

Late last week I was suddenly and unexpectedly informed that everything I'd been told before was incorrect, and given no explanations or apologies for this. I was left with very few options that would allow me to keep my funding for the next two years. I in turn informed the scholarship office of this, but they're so swamped and understaffed right now I didn't get a reply until earlier this evening.

Having just learned my lesson about the squeaky wheel getting the oil, I started emailing and calling pretty much everyone involved in this whole process. I got more information from a more reliable source at the school and directly contacted my sponsors. By late this afternoon, I had informed just about everyone of just about everything and had finally gotten a preliminary response from the sponsors.

I don't know what the ultimate decision will be, but there's now a chance again that it will turn out to be a non-issue instead of a deal-breaker. If that's the case... well... if you hear incoherent screaming coming from northern NJ, that's just me losing my mind once and for all. Don't worry.

The second reason, and I'm sorry to those of you I really should've called instead of letting you find out this way, is that my cat took another turn for the worse. We decided late last week (just as the scholarship shit hit the fan) that it was time for her one-way trip to the vet. So we had all weekend to agonize over the decision and confuse the hell out of the cat by paying so much attention to her and giving her so many treats.

Sassafrass was getting old, her diabetes just wasn't responding very well to treatment, her hind legs were showing pronounced signs of painful nerve damage, and her bladder control was worse than the Doctor's control of his TARDIS. It was time. I'm sad and I'll miss her, but it was time.

Mom and Dad took her in at 4pm, while I sat in front of my computer and phone waiting for something, anything to happen in terms of my scholarship.

Here she is, chargin' her lasers atop Mom's desk one last time.

I'll miss you, stinky-butt.

I haven't been reading or writing or watching anything lately. I try, but thirty seconds later my attention is gone and I can't sit still and I give up. Maybe when I know something solid about the scholarship mess it'll be easier. I would love to sign up for Support Stacie again, but realistically I don't know if it's such a good idea for me right now.

I just... ::incoherent stressed-out gibbering::... it's been a yellow bottle day.


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Aug. 18th, 2009 02:11 am (UTC)

I've been wondering where you've been lately. Sorry to hear you've not been having a good time of it :( I've been there, done that with the one-way trips to the vet, and they're always incredibly tough, no matter how prepared you think you are.

As for the scholarship, what a bummer! I hope it gets sorted out; I know how happy you were when you got it in the first place. Here's hoping for good news!
Sep. 4th, 2009 01:45 am (UTC)
::hugs back:: Thanks. It's weird not having a cat in the house. I've been trying to convince the rest of my family to start fostering. We'll see how that goes, I guess.

The outcome for the degree was good news in the end. After all of that they decided the original degree was fine! I've had my first couple of classes this week and things seem okay so far. There's still a bit of paperwork to sort out. Of course, once that's done there will just be coursework to replace it. But that's what I signed up for.

I did get your IM, by the way, just some time later that night. I've been using Trillian as an email notification system so I've had it up but not been paying attention to anything but the email alerts. Thanks for thinking of me, though. It's comforting to know that fandom and everyone in it will still be there when I'm ready to come back. :-)
Aug. 18th, 2009 02:46 am (UTC)
*waves from elsewhere in northern NJ*

I am so sorry to hear about your cat. It is never easy to say goodbye, no matter how many happy years your furry friend has enjoyed.

Hang in there.
Sep. 4th, 2009 01:48 am (UTC)
::waves back:: Thank you.
Aug. 18th, 2009 02:55 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry about your cat. And your scholarship. But I hope things work out so I don't have to be sorry about the latter. *crosses fingers for you*
Sep. 4th, 2009 01:49 am (UTC)
Thank you for the finger crossing. It seems to have helped... they decided that my original degree program was acceptable. I just have some paperwork left to straighten out now.
Aug. 18th, 2009 05:39 am (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through such a rough patch. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.
Sep. 4th, 2009 01:51 am (UTC)
Thanks for the finger crossing. I'm sorry that it's mostly your auction fic that's suffered for this lately. Work progresses, slowly but surely. :-)
Sep. 4th, 2009 01:55 am (UTC)
If you need to just forget about the auction fic, let me know.
Sep. 4th, 2009 02:08 am (UTC)
Oh, no! I've no intention of giving up. I truly love the story and I need fannish things to work on when reality gets too annoying. It just may be slower in coming than you deserve, so thank you for being patient with me and my interfering RL drama. :-)
Sep. 4th, 2009 02:37 pm (UTC)
I'm glad it's not some awful dreaded task or something that's hanging over your head.
Aug. 18th, 2009 08:11 am (UTC)
Ohhh, poor kitty. Not the best of times to have to find some sanity to deal with the other rubbish...
Sep. 4th, 2009 01:52 am (UTC)
Not the best of times at all. It was a rough few days on top of a rough few weeks. But at least things have straightened out somewhat with the degree program, so things are looking up now. :-)
Aug. 18th, 2009 08:37 pm (UTC)
Aw, I'm sorry. I suspect my Lucy won't be around too much longer, a year or two, and I hope I'll know when it's time to let her go.

If a drabble or two would cheer you up, feel free to give me a prompt.
Sep. 4th, 2009 01:54 am (UTC)
Thanks. I'm sorry to hear about Lucy. The hardest thing is knowing when. My poor mom agonized over Sassy for weeks, and then for the whole weekend after she decided. But it was definitely time.

Ooooh... drabbles. Hmmm. How about bureaucracy and its "hurry up and wait" mentality? Any Doctor/companion(s) you like. :-)
Aug. 18th, 2009 10:20 pm (UTC)

When it rains, it pours, my friend. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your cat. It's never easy to lose a friend, even if it is time.

Your scholarship sounds like it's continuing to be a massive pain. I hope it all works out for you. As you said, be the squeaky wheel! It seems to work for other people.

I would love to sign up for Support Stacie again, but realistically I don't know if it's such a good idea for me right now.

I'm going to sit it out this time around too. Just like you, I can't seem to force myself to sit down and write. I just don't have the motivation right now and I've yet to finish stories for the last auction.

Keep your head up, dear. I'll be thinking about you!
Sep. 4th, 2009 02:01 am (UTC)
::hugs back:: Thanks.

The scholarship at least seems to have worked itself out. After all that stress, they up and decided that the original degree program was fine. I wanted to strangle someone. But I've had my first couple of classes now and things seem okay.

I'm still thinking about Support Stacie, though. I really want to do it, but I know I'm over-extended as it is and probably shouldn't. ::contemplates it::
Aug. 18th, 2009 10:39 pm (UTC)
*hugs tightly* I'm so sorry to hear that. Been there, done that with the one-way trips to the vet, and I know how terrible that is.

I hope you get the scholarship sorted out! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.
Sep. 4th, 2009 02:04 am (UTC)
::hugs back:: Thank you. The scholarship did get sorted... in the end, they decided that the original program was fine. All that stress and waiting for a non-result. But I've had my first couple of classes and things seem okay.

The KC-135 was actually mentioned in class tonight (Fundamentals of Systems Engineering) as an example of working with a long life cycle. I had an "I know what that is!" moment, which has been rare so far since this is all very new to me. :-)
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